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[support]

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[listen-to-the-insects]

Breakfast is served

[1never-recovered]

✨I am at my parents house this month and all I can think about is how much weight I can possibly lose within 2-3 weeks so when I come back to college people notice the difference and compliment me (not knowing they are validating my ed)✨

[sadreact]

if I can't be happy at least i can be skinny

[disapearing-act]

🦋

[aanggelicc]

i’m back after my year hiatus & i’m still on my same bs 🤡

anyways, how are you guys? ❤️

[lolalagoon]

fasting gives me sm confidence, i feel so cute and pretty when my stomach is empty

[kaspermoon]

nothing feels better than seeing your weight go down

[dead-core]

my dr is recommending some dietary restrictions that basically mean i'm not supposed to eat any of my favorite foods 🙃 eating for pleasure was the only way i was able to get around ed thoughts so now it's like why fucking eat all

[macoronimuncher]

Holy shit not eating actually in fact does work lmao

This is gonna become an addiction…yay!

[listen-to-the-insects]

Welp, happy 22nd

I simultaneously love and hate how triggering autumn is.

Colorful leaves, orange fairy lights barely illuminating a messy room; a distinct smell of dew and frost in the mornings, dying sunrays in the afternoon and sodium lamps against a cloudy maroon sky in the evening; oversized sweaters of warm colors and the romanticized mundaness of life in academia.

Coffee, coffee and more coffee.

Even the color palette of autumn awakens something in me, a sense of finality that tells me it's time to leave everything behind.

I can't wait until the temperatures drop below zero so I can finally freeze along with the first snowflakes.

I want to be immured in time itself, become one with time and space and matter...

And the key to it all is to simply ⭐ve

[1never-recovered]

🍽️🍽️back on track💫💫

day 2

so I've decided to really go back to 4na, it is for the best, I have never been so fucking fat in my entire life and I hate it. I want people to get worried cause I never eat.

today I made a 24 hour fast, then ate 2 slices of bread with eggs and 1 piece of cake that I made with my roommates. I really like to cook and wanted to do it just for them because it is a special day but it would look pretty fucking weird if didn't ate my own food. it was it. it was ok, a good beginning I guess.

my plans for tomorrow are that I don't eat nothing before 6 pm, I think I can handle it, the only thing that is disturbing me are the heartburns from my gastritis, if anyone has a remedy or a tip on how to avoid it I would be really grateful. I guess I got them from the last time I was on mi4 and it has never really abandoned me.

wish me luck

cw: 198 lbs

gw: 120 lbs

[cherriiramen]

Whenever I think of the Harley/Joker queer besties dynamic, I picture this

[toastedcrumbs]

⭐Ethereal th!spO !!

[cowboysonacid]

[withbadgal]

this christmas i need THE body